(A heads-up. This is going to be intense. This is an example of how humans unfortunately and nonconsciously react to thoughts of their human insignificance.)

You’re such a nice and stupid broken boy.
A nice broken silly girl. And I am
The Only One to fix you. Apologize to
me? Do so and I won. Because I Am
Right. And you are so wrong. You are
a stupid dummy. So next time don’t
piss me off. You’ll make me do it
again. I Know. So you better watch
out. I am the Master PuppetMaster.
And I get my kicks out of playing you
all. I am the Total Jailer. The Dark
Hooded Executor. My job is to Control
and Destroy you. So you better watch
out. I breathe kerosene, cook with grenades,
and sleep with spiked chains
because I am smarter than you. I am
the Alpha. The Omega. The Absolute
Dominator. And you? You are just a
peon. I wear you out with The Facts
and My Superior Brain and Outlook
because I can. But spraying Raid
works far greater. It’s slow,
but I go for the jugular. I love the
blood. I am the Villain, Victim and
Rescuer. I sit atop The Pyramid, you
slaves. No room here for fresh
thinkers, and high energy and art and
team players. I am the One-Rule Man.
I Am The Only Creator. You are
idiots! No balancing the heart and
the head in MY World. I’d rather see
you all dead, you scum, you whores. I
have no patience for intuition with
my narrow thinking. You deserve to be
demeaned by My Know-It-All. You
make me enraged with your slow stupid
brains and it’s because of you I take
offense to being contradicted. I
resent the Hell out of you. Die you
fools! Competitive, impatient, out-of-
control anger are My Right and My Attitude.
So I’ve decided you’re flawed and that
I’m always right about you. So tie on
the strings and let me blame and play you.
I am the PhD, General, The Dictator, The
Admiral. I am the one in Command over you.
So don’t even THINK about
escaping. You are MINE to complain
to. And don’t even DARE admit that
it’s True that I am soaking in Fears
through and through. And you don’t
DARE interrupt Me! I ALWAYS Have,
And I AM, The Last All Mighty Word Over You!
©️2008 Much Love, Deb Poems
http://www.muchlovedebpoems.com
(This poem was sadly inspired by someone I knew and loved, and who had undergone years of chemotherapy, and had undiagnosed Type 2 Diabetes. Their nonconscious death anxiety unfortunately was kicked into high gear. Their brain biologically reacted destructively to its natural fear of its death.)
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