disappointed beyond despair

i expected better

than what i felt

on my planned out long anticipated

looked forward to summer vacation

i didn’t expect to be hostile

i didn’t mean to ruin the expectations of relaxation

and

destroy any of the fun i actually did not feel

i thought this vacation was going to relieve me of my dwelling

on my own mortality

at work and

at home –

i thought

i would evade my thoughts of death

that ongoing problems at work

and ongoing arguments at home

relentlessly endlessly trigger

Where is there any peace on this earth?

I ended up paying loads of money

lugging the luggage and baggage of my death anxiety

on this failure of an escape

Death anxiety even upped the ante

bringing along the dog, the children and the in-law

My evasive travel plan strategy didn’t work

©️ September 2025 Much Love, Deb Poems